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BAM.
I fell to da ground, i could see blood coming from my nose and ahmed standing above me with the vase in his hand.
I looked up at Faisal- he punched shirley and said to ahmed, "well done bruv," then turned to shirley and said, "wheres all the money durty nigger- fuckin tell us or we'll give you a little taster of what we do to black bitches who get our dicks hard."
Shirley cried looking at me and den grandad, "theres one thousand in my chest of drawers- i was savin it to go back home with rupert," she burst into tears. faisal kicked her face and ran upstairs.
my head was throbbin and i was feelin light headed, i saw the gun nex to me- i tried to grab it but one of the guys stepped on my hand, took it and held it to my head, "dum bitch." my spirit could fell grandads love for me leavin- dis was all my fault- he was dead cos i had gotten involvd wiv dese animals.
Faisal ran down an said, "pick up da sket and put her in the car- darrens waitin for us."
"what about the gran'ma?", ahmed said. faisal looked at grandads body and den shirley,
"we'll leave her to fuck her dead man," he laughed. shirley vomited, faisal laughed, ahmed picked me up and put me over his back and pushed me into the back of the whip, "shirley," i called.
she crawled to grandads body and held him to her chest.
Faisal disconnected all the phones and said to her, "call da police and we'll come back and finish where i started." he kicked grandads body den ran into the car.
dere was two cars.
i was in the back wiv ahmed and i fink some guy called Mo and Faisal was in the passenger seat and some ova guy was drivin, in the car behind us were the ova man.

i was liteheaded- i could feel blood rushin from my head and down my back.
"you did a dumb fing nomi- tellin darren aboutme saying i ws gonna kill him." faisal said lookin back at me and den he turned to da guy drivin and said, "take the backroutes in case people see dis bitch bleding- we dont need a routine check cos i didnt take this route to be checked."

"so youre actually gonna pay darren a grand faisal?", ahmed asked puttin his hand on ma pussy, "hell fink your a pussy."
faisal said, "bruv- id rather look like a pussy on road dan a pussy in pen cos den all da guys in pen will fuck me- cos they like pussies- if he says shit about Jermaine or tripti were done for- Omara can only do so much."

grandad was dead and all i could fink of was his lifeless body in shirleys arms, i wanted to die and so i was happy as i felt my head gettin weak and my body gettin numb- dere was no point- grandad was all i had- and now he was dead cos of dese pricks. i could smell their dirt and it made me sick, God knew dat if i had a machete i would have sliced dese fuckers up- come like Sweeney Todd.
I knew wherewe was headin- we were headin souf and it was a suprise to me dat dese dum fuckers didnt seem to be shook.
dat prick darren had snitched- even tho i was tryin to help him and as i felt the numbness in my my head get stronger i said, "you man are gonna have to kill me."

"what did u say bitch?", faisal asked.
"If you man dont kill me- im going to find every single one of you and chop your fuckin balls off, you need to kill me rite nw cos if you dont ill find you and make all of you pay for what u did to my grandad."

dey all burst out laughin, "ahmed u knocked her head too hard man- shes fuckin lost it," Mo said.
Ahmed hit my head, i was satin between Mo and ahmed wiv my hair over my face and blood runnin down from my nose and head.
"you don't get it do you," i said, "you lot have killed de only person i had left- and so when if you dont kill me now- i'll get u," i turned to ahmed and said, "ill cut your tits off," then turned to mo and said, "i'll cut your black toes off," den i looked to da driver and said, " i dont know u," den i turned to faisal and said, "im gonna come 2 ur yard and fuck u up so bad ull die with ur mouth wide open and den ill fry sausages put dem in ur mouth and den stitch ur mouth closed."

Ahmed gave me one dirty box, "PORK IS FORBIDDEN."
I looked up and licked da blood from my lip, "thats rich coming from you fatty."
"dis bitch is pissin me off man!," mo said, "come we give her what shes askin for."
"we have to meet darren in half an hour," faisal said, "we'll deal wiv her whn we're done."

we got to some old garage, it was old and grey and deserted. the man behind us arrived as well. den darren walked over to the car, faisal rolled down the window.
"kl bruv," he said to darren. darren nodded at all of us and shook his head at me.
"you brought da sket?".
Faisal said, "we brought her as a peace offering,"
Darren shook his hand, "got about 20 man inside who wanna fuck dis hoe."
everyone laughed, "should be fun," faisal said.
"Come inside," darren said.
they all got out of the car, ahmed grabbed me and pulled me out. i was dragged by my hair into the garage.
it smelled of weed.
there were so many guys- about 50 guys jus watchin.
all of dem nodded at faisal and his boys. darren said, "we got some drinks- help yourselves innit," then he turned to the 50 guys and said, "dese man are gonna be our boys now innit- beef is squashed everyone introduceyourself."
the guys got up and started chattin to faisal and his man whilst darren looked at me and said, "you told me u didnt know where shawna went u fuckin liar- quebec innit- she told me u knew- shes comin back to me."
i said nuthin.
den he called faisal over.
"bruv- i dont even want the grand yahno- i wanted 2 c if i cld trust u," darren said, "i was never gonna snitch- why would I- Jermaine was an informer snitchin on my cousins- you did me a favour by duppying him, haha- faisal i like you man- dis is why its important us lot are cool- fink about it- tink how big we can be in a few years time- ive got all da affiliates of ssk and uve got all da arabs- we're unstoppable bruv."

faisal spudded him, darren continued, "we need to start sumtin big so when were about 30 we can have the youngers shottin for us- we cant be 30 years old and be still walkin on road." what the fuck was this guy on.
"me and u shld bang dis hoe 2gever as bruvas man," faisal said lookin at me.
"kl," darren said, "Oi u man!," he said 2 his boys, "me and faisal are gonna take care of dis sket- u man enjoy yourselves."

darren punched me and he and faisal pushed me into a room. darren locked the door.
"take off your clothes bitch," i began to undress.
darren was standin behind faisal.
and den de gunshots came.
"what the fuck was that!", faisal shouted.
darren smiled and opend the door, faisal ran out.
all his boys on the floor, bullets to the head, to the neck.
Faisal turned to Darren and said, "you set me up."
I trembled as i saw all dead bodies and darrens boys standin over dem.
"I didnt care about jermaine- i didnt give a shit about the asian chick- but when u man try kill me- nah nah never dat."
Faisal burst into tears at the sight of his friends dead, bleeding onto each other.
then all of darren's boys turned to faisal.
Faisal got on his knees, "please darren- please,"
Darren looked to me and said, "what should we do wiv him?"
I looked at faisal, his eyes were tryin to beg but he knew dere would be no point.
i looked around at the black boys, in the three striped hoodies- the cainrows, the shapeups, the slang and the red eyes and then i looked at the guns in their hands my eyes teared up. i want my grandad.
"gimme a gun," i whispered.
Faisal wept, Darren laughed and handed me a whip.
"you know how to use it?", Darren said.
"my heart does."
I pointed the gun, "open your fuckin mouth," i whispered. he wept. "suck the gun- give it brain," i said.
all the guys started laughin, "sick chick," i heard darren said.
"ah," someone whimpered. it was ahmed- he was climbin over mos body. I shot him.
"fat shit."
faisal wept, "you heard me," i said, "suck it."
i had my finger on the trigger as faisal was suckin the 9. "did you learn that from me?", i whispered. Darren laughed and kissed my head, "me and u need to get 2gever, fuck shawna."
I smiled.
Faisal looked up at me, his snot and tears ran onto the whip, "lick it up bitch," i smiled wipin the bloodoff my nose.
den i looked at him and i knew it. i knew wat was gonna happen and i didnt stop him, because i wanted it to.
the knife jammed into my stomach and faisals bloodyhands screamed murder as i fell back onto the ground.
i heard the bullets tear through faisal as i hit the ground.
i saw gold and blue and purple and then i saw red and then purple again- a deep purple and then nothing. nothing at all.













































































































"You have half an hour to visit your inmate- if the inmate begins to behave in a way which we may deem dangerous then we'll have to ask you to leave."
I nodded and put on my sunglasses, i ran my fingers through my short hair as I walked in, there he was- the bastard who saw nothing wrong with fucking and then killing some 18 year old sket when his wife was raising his kids and expectin one on the way.
I sat opposite him.
"So you're my lawyer?" he said, "I thought I asked for Bernstein- who the hell are you?".
I took off my glasses and looked da fucker in the eye.
He jumped back.
"Yes it is," I said, "Yes it is."






Le Fin.














Nomi sat in her wheelchair looking out of the hospital window into the clear blue day. Her right eye still partially blind and her body exhausted from the anti biotics they had pumped into her system.
She heard footsteps walk into the room.
"Who's there?", she called spinning her wheelchair round.
It was the bullet that did all the talking- right out of the clean black gun and into the flesh that so many boys had touched.
"One down- one to go."