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She looked at me.
I didnt look at her but she kept on lookin and den i heard her say,"look at me dear."
And then I looked at my nan.
she looked dead in the eyes, her skin was tired but her eyes weren't. they were alive. she ran to me and hugged me and kissed my cheek and then looked up at the officers, "can we have some time alone please," i said.
"your flight leaves in two hours," the first guy said and then they both left, shuttin and lockin the door behind dem.
"You alive."
"Im sorry about Rupert," I said,"He seemed nice- I know you risked a lot coming here."
"Rochelle you alive- when Nomi told me I fell to the floor and thanked God," she sobbbed, "im so sorry- im so sorry for everyting." then she looked up at me, "they said me cyarn say too much to you and dat cyarn say too much to me- and i understand but at least talk to me- i thort u were dead."

"When mum died- i came to you and you pushed me away."
"I didnt know what to do- what to tink- ur mudda called me rite before he killed her and told me dat she had caught u and him- i didnt know what to say to you."



"7 years old at aunty Amanda's party- you saw my dad touch me in the kitchen- you walked past."

she hung her head down and sobbed, "im sorry."

"Now you're alone- no man- no family- alone on Black Prince road."

"I've got Nomi- and I want you- the three of us can be a family"

"Nomi will leave the second you show yourself up for da witch u r grandma."


"Please dont curse me- that girl is all i have- she can only see in one eye."

"Someone's still after her- theyre going to come for you too."

grandma looked me in the eye and said, "ive made so many mistakes in my life but none of dem compare to the mistake i made when i didnt protct you."

"Now you have Nomi- how long will it be till she gets tired of cleaning ur shit- till she remembers how much life she's missing- i heard she has a hole in her tit."

"Yes- yes she does b-but it's healing- the doctors were able to take out the bullet in time."

"Pretty pretty Nomi- the grandaughter you never had."

"please stop."

"Whoever's after her is going to get her- and then you- id love to see it."

"please stop rochelle."

"8 years old at Uncle Johnsons' funeral- you saw Uncle Danny touch me you smacked me for it."

she cried.

"You think by looking after Nomi you'd erase all the shit you allowed- do you let her bring boys back and listen to them fuck her sensless and wish it was you- mum told me about all them men u used to bring back home from work- u dont even know who my grandad is- do you? fucked so many men u couldnt even remember which one fathered mum."

"please stop."

"Nomi likes girls- you and her been getting busy."

"stop it."

"why?".


"it's filthy."

"you've heard worse."

"dont talk about nomi dat way please."

"why cos shes ur new grandaughter now."











































"No, because she's your sister."